I feel like he cared more about his ex wife n his relationship back then. I feel like hes not being 100 with his fiancee and their relationship now. I guess it scarred him. I lose. I’m fighting to make things better, hes fighting to keep his name clean. All we are doing is pointing fingers. There;s no progress. There’s nothing. I can’t be heard. No one can. This is pointless.

I’ve been having dreams of smoking cigarettes throughout this pregnancy. I swear at least on 5 different occasions that I can remember. I haven’t smoked in what? 3 and a half months or so. The urge is still there smh. Drinking too. I haven’t had any dreams about it. I need to lose myself.

Vows are spoken
To be broken
Feelings are intense
Words are trivial
Pleasures remain
So does the pain
Words are meaningless
And forgettable

victoriousvocabulary:

ANTIPODE

[noun]

a direct or exact opposite.

hellanne:

New York at Night (by JC Richardson)